Design school graduate

Well, in December I graduated with my bachelors. It should feel like an accomplishment but it has only made me feel like a failure. I went from being able to use my creativity freely, spending most of my time at home, and caring for my family to sitting at a desk all day creating designs I hate and barely spending any time with my family. Of course I make a decent paycheck so I should be grateful but I'm simply unhappy. I had such aspirations for my career but after several job applications were sent and rejected or ignored I lost most of my confidence. I keep telling myself I must not be good enough or that I picked the wrong career to pursue.

It was my long term goal to be a freelancer, but it has become my right now goal. I want to start working from home ASAP. But how does one with so many different skills pick just one focus? I love painting, I'm a pretty good photographer, and I think there is a place for my style of design. So pick one and then where to start? I'm a little overwhelmed and wish someone would just tell me what to do! I've got some baby steps in my planner: 1. Get my instagram feed cohesive 2. Start selling on etsy 3. Go to networking events. Hopefully I'll meet someone that could give me some guidance, or really appreciate my work and want to hire me.

I will keep you all updated, and I would love some positive vibes my way :)